Monday, February 8, 2010

Five Things Plus One

1. I have links to share.

a) Yuki-onna talks about deodorant, which turns into an amazing rant about gender stereotypes. Make sure to expand the comments on the first page; there's some awesome discussion going on.

b) Fantastic burlesque music, free of charge. You can listen for nothing, or pay to download.

c) A great reference for anyone interested in 19th century and Civil War slang.



2. I am finished one of my school courses. Really finished. The I'm taking my textbooks back on Wednesday sort of finished. That leaves:

a) Math (0% complete)
b) AP Literature (approx 75% complete)
c) Work Experience (no schoolwork required)

On the non-school side of things, I am currently studying tarot, horary astrology (as in, the classical "scientific" astrology of the 1600's, before Alan Leo fucked it up and turned it into a scam), alchemy, comparative mythology, the decan system, Golden Dawn colour theory, etc, ad infinitum. Brain so full. Interestingly, I'm not researching these things to use them, with the exception of tarot (i.e., am not researching horary to read my horoscope). but rather their history, how they relate to each other, and what influence they had on how 17th century people thought. It all comes back to history or literature, here.



3. Books I picked up recently:
  • Serbian Fairy Tales [1921].
  • The Idiot's Guide to Alchemy (Dennis William Hauck), which is clear and brilliant and down to earth. Written by a certified alchemist who was trained by one of the last traditional Italian philosopher-scientists.
  • Europe: A History (Norman Davies), which is heavily lauded as the best specific history text ever written. If I ever wanted a book weighty and deep enough to be considered the Bible of European History, this is the one. Were you so inclined, you could instruct the masses and then murder them, with this 1390 page brick.
  • The Hero With A Thousand Faces (Joseph Campbell), which is pretty much standard fare these days if you're studying mythology. I haven't read much Campbell, and I need to rectify this egregious error.
  • Thunderstruck (Erik Larson), non-fiction, about the history of the wireless. Like one of his other books, The Devil in the White City, he ties an event that, at the time, was considered loony but is now a pivotal part of history or science or what have you, and also tells the history of a killer who was active in the same time and area. (Devil was about the Chicago World's Fair and serial killer H.H. Holmes, respectively. Highly recommended.)
  • The Chemical Theatre (Charles Nicholl), which is a study of alchemical imagery in Shakespeare, and is so far a most excellent text. (I told you it all comes back to history or literature.)
Books I'm currently reading:
  • The Chemical Theatre. See above.
  • The Idiot's Guide to Alchemy. Ditto.
  • Understanding the Thoth Tarot by Lon Milo Duquette. If you, like me, would rather chew glass than try to puzzle through Crowley's Book of Thoth unaided, this is the text for you.
  • Drawing Down the Moon by Margot Adler. Good, solid pagan scholarship. I read it every couple of years.
  • Finnegan's Wake by Joyce. (Hey, I said I was reading it, not that I was comprehending it. Although, shockingly, that is coming.)
I was reading Coming of Age in the Milky Way (Timothy Ferris), but I got irate and chucked it at a wall when the author devoted only half a page (half a page!) to the influence of Islamic scholars on the Renaissance, western history, western philosophy, and western science. Not only that -- in his opinion, the Muslim scientists/etc were quaint sub-creatures who "undermined the very cosmology they cherished, by transmuting Ptoltemaic abstractions into real, concrete celestial spheres and epicycles." He refuses to acknowledge that those icky Muslims had any effect on European culture whatsoever, and he conveniently does not mention that without Arabic scholars, the knowledge we lost in Europe (especially the sheer tonnage of all that is Greek) would have been just that -- lost, forever. The Arabs protected and translated texts from all over history that otherwise would have been buried by the sands of time, and pioneered the basis of modern philosophy, medicine, and the scientific method. While London was still a collection of mud-huts by the Thames, Moorish Spain under Islamic rule had running water, sewage systems, paved roads, street lighting, advanced medical practices based on logic rather than superstition, religious tolerance, rights for women and slaves, and the first observatory.

Hence, via blogging, I have revealed yet another of my pet peeves. Take care when mentioning Islamic scholarship around me, because I have the tendency to balrog all over the place about ignorant Eurocentricity and historical sinkholes. Ye be warned.



4. I need to push myself back into the writing river, and the best way to do that is with a short story. Hence, I'm taking votes. The choices are...

a) The story begun here, about the widower lord, his haunted house, and the journalist who turns his world upside down;

b) The story begun here, about aliens and friendship in a world gone wrong;

c) Hilane's story, involving Drow, a realistic kick-butt female protagonist, and political intrigue;

d) A recently-spawned story about an intersex character who grows up in a ballroom community (not what it sounds like, seriously -- click the link) with a bit of a magical twist;

e) And, last but not least, a story which I can only summarize using the first line: "Thrice are we sinners. We are siblings, which is outlawed; we are women, which is abhorrent; we are atheist, which is heresy. And if they discover us, we shall die for it." Half sisters, forbidden love, a harem in Morocco, and Existentialism.

For those interested, Hilane's story is one of two that doesn't barf homosexuality all over the place (although it is referred to), and B doesn't really talk about it even though it occurs. D probably has the most flagrant queer theme (obviously) and A is close behind, if not as varied. E implies a lot more than it shows, in the vein of Maurice and other such Victorian works infected with teh gay.

If asked, I would say my favorites out of the five are the first one and the last one, but we'll see what people vote for (if anything). Whichever story I end up writing will be shared on Pixel-Stained Technopeasant Day, in April.



5. Happy Observed 446th Birthday, Christopher Marlowe! (I'm two days late, but since it's "birthday, implied," I have a little leeway.)

This is an appropriate time to dispel the biggest myth about Marlowe -- he wasn't gay. Well, yes, he had sex with men. However, in Elizabethan times, homosexual activity was a kink, not an orientation. No one called themselves "homosexual" in Shakespeare's day -- they were classified as tribades or sodomites or sapphists or what have you, but it was a practice, not an identity. (Relatedly, to bust another urban myth, there was no such thing as an Elizabethan "molly house," not to mention the fact that the term "molly" didn't arise until the mid-1700's. Ditto for "homosexual," which was coined in -- correct me if I'm wrong -- the 1860's.)

The more you know!



6. I have a Sekrit Projekt in the works. Whether it'll get finished soon (or ever) is up in the air, but I'm having fun with the process -- which admittedly is so far thought-based only because I'm waiting for a big piece of the project to arrive in the mail. However, if I mention that it involves Lovecraft, felt pens, and a big helping of Silly, maybe I can get my readers to constantly koosh me about getting it done.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Woes Of A Young Scholar: A Play In One Act

457 470 books.

*sigh*

I'm kind of stupidly glad that my local library doesn't have the best selection, or I would never get around to making a dent in the ever-growing Monster Athenaeum. However, comma, my local bookstores needs to stop having such awesome selection, because that is terribly detrimental.

(I suppose it's also more evidence that I shouldn't be let out of the house, but that's neither here nor there.)

Amazon Fail, Part Two

After the last Amazon.com debacle, I started buying from the company again. I justified this due to the possibility that the entire situation could conceivably have been a glitch in the system, combined with the fact that I was (and still am) a student with a part time job -- and Amazon's prices are competitive. However, I was still leery about making large purchases, and I was silently looking for a really good reason to stop buying from them completely.

Well, over the weekend, I found one. Authors all over the world are raising their voices.

Scott Westerfield does a bang-up job of explaining the back story.

John Scalzi weighs in, then makes suggestions on how to realistically boycott Amazon by supporting the authors involved.

Sarah Monette says,
"As John rightly notes, the people who are getting screwed by Amazon's, ah, dramatic response to Macmillan are the authors. And most of those authors are not as lucky as I am. So if you're boycotting Amazon, make it active rather than passive: go buy books from someone else."
And that's exactly what I'm going to do. I've had enough of being a pansy and ordering books from a company I dislike simply on the grounds of saving a few bucks. If you want to do the same and still save a decent amount of money, I highly recommend Chapters (discount prices online and free shipping over $39), The Book Depository (discount prices and free shipping no matter your cost or location), and of course, supporting your local bookstores.

If you want to help Macmillan authors specifically, take a gander through their website and check out their books. I went through a few genres on the website and wrote down titles I know my local bookstore carries, and in light of yesterday being payday, I'm going to take myself on down and buy a couple.

Amazon is toast as far as my family is concerned. We'll be taking our yearly $500+ spent on books online elsewhere, and gladly. I can forgive a company of one stupid mistake, but to quote Westerfield --
"...out of the blue, one of the sides in this negotiation spat their pacifier across the room in a very public and embarrassing display of petulance. And that corporation was Amazon."
-- which makes two public and embarrassing displays of petulance on Amazon's part, and that's enough for me.

God, I was already an activist for GLBT stuff, anti-racism, anti-misogyny, anti-intolerance, and other stupid things that shouldn't need to be issues in the first place. Now we can add 'literature' to the ever-growing rant-list.

*balrog*

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Five Things

1. I should have just stayed in bed this morning.



2. Have I ever mentioned how awesome my father is? I woke up Saturday morning sick from my antibiotics, but clicked my heels together wearily and went to work anyway. While I was at work, he meandered into town for coffee and a paper, and along the way, stopped in a used-book store. When I got home, two books were waiting for me as a feel-better present: a 1955 book on the stories behind 75 of the great operas, and a 1852 book on English, Latin, and Greek grammar. I actually squeaked with glee. BOOKS!



3. I had a dream last night in which I was aiming for a PhD, and ended up writing my dissertation on mid-19th and early 20th century horror -- which meant the dissertation mainly focused on Poe, H.P. Lovecraft, and Clark Ashton Smith. At the end of the dream, when the dissertation was finished, the ghosts of those three worthies came and peered at it very skeptically while I sweated. They finally proclaimed it good, vanished, and then I woke up. Needless to say, I awoke thinking "WTF, brain. WTF."



4. I find it ironic that only after studying Elizabethan drama do I finally understand what the Wiccan exhortation "An it harm none, do what ye will" actually means. I thought it was a split infinitive previously, "an" being simply a short form of "and" -- however, 'an' actually means 'if.' Hence, the phrase means "if it harms no one, do what you please." Which is essentially what I thought it meant before, but the realization clarified it. I never realized before how much that simple phrase characterizes my entire opinion on religious beliefs and practices: as long as it doesn't bring harm to yourself or others, believe what you like. (However, in my opinion, harm to oneself includes willful ignorance, and harm to others includes evangelicalism, so your mileage may vary.)



5. During the period of my quarantine, and in the following days, I realized just how fervently I enjoy solitude. The sound of rain, the perfect feel of raised text on ancient paper, the almost transmundane importance I place on certain objects... just can't be experienced with other people. Greater and greater portions of my life are becoming intensely personal, things that I don't want to share. When I'm in my room, the door is always closed, though unlocked. Interaction is a thing that happens infrequently, and I like it that way. When I'm alone with my books and my studies and my antiques, I'm calmer. Happier. I have no distracting thoughts of teenage drama, or sexuality, or social expectations. I can be wholly and unashamedly myself -- a student, a scholar, a pagan; rather deviant, intensely serious, and unashamedly spiritual. Lesbian in taste, not desire. Just... me. Not the person I unconsciously become around others.

It was an important realization -- its implications already vaster than I immediately assumed. In between books and homework, I'm figuring it out.

Updates and Stuff

ZEPPELINPHAN:
I was finally able to visit her on Tuesday. She's recognizably herself, no quirks or tics -- her only remaining issue is remembering the names of things. She occasionally forgets people's names, especially if she hasn't seen them during her stay in the hospital (she remembered mine mostly because her mother mentioned me a lot, and Sister's because, well, Sister is memorable :P). What animals and objects are called sometimes eludes her as well, but she's working on that diligently. So, this is all good news! The only bad news is that, of course, they still don't know what caused all this shit in the first place.

READING:
  • Shakespeare and Co. by Stanley Wells. It's the history of Elizabethan drama during Shakespeare's time, and includes information about such play-writers as Christopher Marlowe (LOVE), Ben Jonson, Thomas Middleton, etc.
  • A Dead Man in Deptford by Anthony Burgess. A fictionalized account of Christopher Marlowe's later years, including his homosexual forays. Very well researched, for a fictional account, with magnificent writing.
  • Surpassing the Love of Men by Lillian Faderman (still). It's so scholarly...
  • The Crimson Petal and the White by Michael Faber. 19th Century London, told from the point of view of a literate prostitute and one of the men who purchases her services. Brilliant and crude as, well, 19thC London.

RECENT USED-BOOK STORE ACQUISITIONS:
  • Boccaccio, The Decameron. 1980's edition of a 1350's text.
  • J.B. Trapp, Medieval English Literature. Includes full text of Beowulf, Piers Plowman, Sir Gawain, and many others (with annotations from Oxford).
  • Malcolm Godden & Michael Lapinge (editors), Cambridge Companion to Old English Literature. A language-centered history of Anglo-Saxon England. Both literary criticism and linguistic geekery.
  • C.M. Millward, A Biography of the English Language. Basically a textbook. The first few chapters are basic linguistics, and the rest is the journey from primitive Anglo-Saxon to modern English.
  • J.U. Nicolson (translator), Canterbury Tales in Modern English. 1934. First edition I've found to retain some of the stunning poetry of the original.
  • Robert Macneil, et al., The Story of English. A companion volume to the set of videos I have on the same subject. Considering the obsessive love I have for those videos, you can imagine my glee when I found the book.
  • Oh, and The Crimson Petal and the White. You can tell I'm more into non-fiction than fiction, lately. This was one trip.
During the book-store trawl, I also proved my theory yet again that I can manage to freak my mother out, any time, any place, just by speaking Middle English. I start quoting the General Prologue of the Canterbury Tales and she just loses it. I don't know why she finds it so fascinating! It's English, for goodness sakes!

[ETA - MORE BOOKS:
  • James Joyce, Finnegan's Wake
  • Goethe, Faust (parts 1 & 2)
  • Peter S. Beagle, The Last Unicorn
  • Joseph Campbell, A Skeleton Key to Finnegan's Wake
  • Don Gifford & Robert J. Seidman, Ulysses Annotated
Obviously, I can't stop myself from trawling book stores when I leave the house. At least most of these were on credit from the four huge bags of books I took in...]

[ETA2: I just realized this means I got rid of about 100 books and promptly acquired 13 more within 24 hours. Obviously I'm trying to compensate for something. Note to self: current amount of 457 (!) books is not a quota to be filled.]

Speaking of reading...

TAROT:
Yes, I'm back into it. Of course, in typical Bryi style, it's in a completely different way than I ever read before. The folks over at the Historical Iconography section of the tarot forum have been doing absolute mounds of research, and have come up with a really solid foundation on which we can base suppositions about how folks from the 1600's read the cards -- and that's exactly what we've done. It's based on knowledge of the trionfi games, historical cartomancy, Pythagorean numerology, medieval horary astrology, and common sense. Using this method, the 'worst' minor in the deck is not the usual 10 of Swords, but rather, the 1 of Swords -- the Ace (although the term "ace" wasn't used back then, technically speaking) and the best minor is the 1 of Cups. The elements are shifted around too -- they're based on the medieval humors (choleric, sanguine, melancholic, phlegmatic) instead of the idea of Fire as being literally fiery. The deck I'm using, unfortunately, isn't the best one -- it's a full reproduction (clean lines, bright colours, etc) rather than a photographic representation of an actual historical deck. It's good for a reproduction, though. I like it.

WRITING:
My brain has been taken over by books, Shakespeare, schoolwork, and historical tarot stuff. My brain is, yes, still obsessed with The Monster, but I haven't gotten around to figuring anything out or writing anything down.

ART:
Are you kidding? (However, secret project sort of in the works, but it's less 'art' than 'colourful scribbles'.)

HEALTH:
FINALLY BETTER OMFG. Thank god for antibiotics. I still get the occasional hacking spell, but it's not a Death Cough. I have never been sick for that long in my life. Two and a half weeks of hell and brain-dead. My energy levels are still in the basement of Dis, but I'm feeling fine, which is mostly what counts.

BRAIN:
Anglo-Saxon... the Wife Of Bath as a feminist narrative... the ethics of a Polish-speaking Pope being head of a Latin-speaking Vatican arriving in a Hebrew-speaking state and delivering a speech in English... homoeroticism and genderqueer themes in Twelfth Night... Beowulf incorrectly transliterated as Christianized epic... brain so FULL!

SCHOOL:
I'm going to SIDES today to speak with Mr. B, who, like Ms. R, is hell-bent on making things ridiculously easy for me all of a sudden. Mr. B is my marker for Comparative Civilizations, and Ms. R is my marker for AP Lit. Ms. R made the first move, taking out two thirds of the assignments in Semester Two because "it's clear that you understand the material given to you and can implement it with ease." She basically said that my essays and discussion assignments were so well done that I didn't need to prove myself anymore. Similarly, Mr. B said that my level of scholarship in previous assignments shows that I comprehend the material, and that a couple of the last few assignments are no longer necessary. Go figure. Now, all that's left to do is convince my math marker of the same concept...

And now, perhaps I should go eat breakfast.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Being A Literary Snob Is Expensive, Part 2043

Dear Brain,

I really appreciate the Shakespeare obsession. It's getting me good marks and turning me on to a vast quantity of awesome books I never would have considered before.

However.

However.

Do we REALLY need the $130 Norton facsimile of the First Folio?

We do?

Really really?

Okay.

*sigh*

*calls work for more hours*

Friday, January 22, 2010

Various Things of an Update Nature

There's a Chinese proverb that goes,
One dragon may have nine different offspring.
Like "May you live in interesting times," this statement is not necessarily a blessing.

So even though
A) I am still ridiculously sick,
B) last night was the first time in 16 days that I slept for more than an hour [six hours at least! woo! *flops*]
C) my brain is about a hair's breadth from being on autopilot...

...that stupid story about everything is still prodding at me like a very determined four year-old.

This is the same four year-old that, for the record, is stamping her foot and pouting and crying "Shan't!" at every opportunity that involves actually writing anything about The Monster. (Which is, for more record-keeping, the working name for this damn thing.) "Shan't!" is also the thematic war cry for anything to do with spatial movement, because my body is still convinced that it is a very uncoordinated invalid. My father walked with me when I left the house last night, mostly to make sure that I wouldn't faint or only make it halfway or whatnot. A round trip that normally takes me ten minutes was upgraded to a shuffling half hour, but I got to the library, picked up my book, and made it back without physical trauma, so I'm proud of myself. I even read a good third of it last night, which was a nice surprise, since reading has been unfortunately dicey lately.

A half hour walk, a good night's sleep, and 90 pages read! I deserve a medal.

Postscript: I'm actually feeling quite well, compared to previous days, and perky besides. Now that I'm on antibiotics (finally!) and painkillers (that also function as cough suppressants and sleeping pills!) my rate of improvement has snowballed. I'm still coughing somewhat, and am completely deaf in my left ear, but the former is getting better and the latter, I'm told, will heal up shortly.



In other news, I received word a few days ago (but didn't have the energy to post about it) that zeppelinphan no longer has a diagnosis after all. The original diagnosis, for those curious, was sarcoidosis. But, like I said, they have retracted that diagnosis, so we're basically back to square one. She's apparently doing "okay," and her troubles are as follows:
  • It's up in the air whether she'll remember someone one day and not the second.
  • Sometimes, when she recognizes someone, she will remember them but not their name. Schmizenheighmer is trying to correct this by using photos like flash cards and getting her to name the person in the photo. I have heard that using this method, her name recall is improving slightly.
  • She has trouble naming objects. She knows what a pencil is, for instance, but she has difficulty bringing up the name for it in her mind. This is the most frustrating part of the whole scenario for her, so I'm told. Understandably so.
I should be able to give first hand information very soon.



Speaking of books, let's have a reading overhead.

CURRENTLY READING:
  • The Adventure of English by Melvyn Bragg. So far, quite good, but I have one bone to pick. I'll mention that when I finish and review it.
  • The Book of William by Paul Collins. So far, an amazing book about the history and significance of Shakespeare's First Folio. (Apparently my Shakespeare obsession has been noted, for upon seeing which book I checked out, my father exclaimed, "MORE Shakespeare?")
  • Surpassing The Love of Men by Lillian Faderman. I lost this one while reading it two years ago, and now that it's surfaced, I'm trudging through it again. It's a dry but remarkable history of romantic friendship and lesbianism between the 1600's and the present.
  • The Fifth Sacred Thing by Starhawk. I'm not horrifically keen on her spiritual writings (although I've enjoyed what I've read of The Spiral Dance and The Earth Path, with reservations), but her fiction, if you can ignore the parts where Wicca is self-inserted a little blatantly, is actually rather good. This is my second read-through of the book. My first read-through was when I was young and impressionable and the allusions to gay and lesbian relationships (and the meditation orgies) were a big thing. They're still a big thing, but now I can enjoy the actual plot and politics surrounding them. (It reads a lot like Rachel Pollack's Grandmother Moon, which was brilliant and heartbreaking and actually made me cry. Highly recommended read, Grandmother Moon. It's about lesbians and magic and it's just great. The local library even carries it, so you have no excuse.)
  • The Golden Bough by Frazer. Yes, still. For all its faults, it is exhaustively researched, so it's taking a while.

BOOKS ON THE READING LIST:
  • For brevity's sake, a LOT of stuff on linguistics
  • For brevity's sake, a LOT of stuff on Shakespeare and Elizabethan drama. And the Elizabethan period in general (partially for school and partially for pleasure)
  • For brevity's sake, a LOT of books on Nazis and Stalin and WWII
  • Emily Dickenson (for school)
  • Walt Whitman (for school)
  • The Great Gatsby (for school)
  • Anything I have that may mention homosexuality from the Chalcolithic era to approximately the Renaissance, re: Comp Civ thesis on same. (Luckily, I have such books as Homosexual Unions In Pre-Modern Europe, so I'm not strapped for resources.)



I'm still in this stupid gibbering disbelief about Whispers In The Dark. On one of my better days, sickness-wise, I was invited to go out for a drink with an old friend. Excelsior, quoth I, and asked her if she didn't mind my coughing before heading over. During the chat, which was pleasant, she asked me, "Well, seriously, what have you been up to lately? Anything exciting?"

"No, not really," I said, as a knee-jerk response. "I wrote a novel in November."

I think I was about as surprised as she was.

This was Christian Friend, so I did not say what the novel was really about when asked (which would have gone something like "it's an erotic horror story about the Devil and a guy named Gunnar") but actually said "it's an extended allegory about choice that uses the Devil as a secondary character" -- which is not a lie.



I received some fantastic news today. After getting a small chunk taken out of it years ago (due to the cult, shall we not speak of it) and then being utterly decimated by the stock crash, my RESP has jumped a staggering 28%. A nice thing to wake up to in the mail! The possibility of going to college without working for ten years beforehand is looking, well, doable. Which is awesome.



And now, after adding to this post little by little over the course of the day, I am now off to a well-deserved rest.